Sometimes it seems as though we “lose” something everyday. I lose my car keys and my iPhone a thousand times a day. Nixon looks at me, swoops a dramatic palm to his forehead and says, “Mommmyyyyyyyyyyy, where is your phone?” I feel frantic for a moment, mostly because I’m running late, and tearing through everything surrounding me. Cursing and blaming everyone and every thing I can think of. ANYONE! To jump to the end of the daily ridiculous shenanigans, I remember this small moment is a metaphor for living. The keys are in my bag, every time. Well, unless I’ve left them in the car. Hey, judge not friend, I remembered the kid and the dog.
My frazzled and accelerated life helps me to remember not to panic. An oxymoron I know. Here’s the thing. I have keys to my home. I have keys to my car. I have my son. We both have our sense of humor and our health. I have an incredible family and an electric existence. We have each other. I haven’t lost a thing. I already have it all.
When I decided to open my life to you, it was after 4 years of silence and judgment on a global scale. If you have ever chatted with me, you know that I always say, “Meh, I’m too stupid to be afraid, thats why I can always rise from any situation.” That’s only partly true. It’s true … I rise. It’s false that I’m not afraid. I feel fear all the time. If I didn’t feel my fear, I wouldn’t know how to be fearless. I choose to move without fear. Fear hinders the greatness that is already within me and within you. I will never stand down to fear. I will always choose hope.
I pushed through the ridicule, the pain, the betrayal, the loss of friends, family, and my comfortable identity. I challenged myself to tell my truth and to open my heart to the love that already existed but I was not choosing to recognize. I chose resilience. I chose love. I chose to be with you! I discovered what I had “lost” never really “was”, and I was inspired to acknowledge the abundance that exists in my life. I already have it all.
Friend, while we critique ourselves every day and find fault with everything about ourselves, we must realize that we are right where we are supposed to be and everything we need to fulfill our destiny is already within us. Pushing through the fear, I choose love over bitterness and despair. Being harsh or hyper-critical on oneself, creates inner anguish. We then communicate from a painful place. No need to do that to yourself. Change the paradigm and your inner dialogue to one of love.
To write about myself publicly or to connect with people around the world was terrifying. Yet, there you were. You greeted me with open hearts, open minds, and boundless love. You exist. You carry me through each day. I had to let go and open my heart, face my fear and stop believing there was something wrong with me. There is nothing wrong with me, and there is absolutely nothing wrong with you. I challenge you to look at yourself honestly and lovingly. See yourself the way I see you. See the perfect human YOU. The YOU that the universe sees. Love your self the way the universe loves you. Compassionately and infinitely. Constantly renewed. Constantly forgiving.
We want MORE. We want BETTER. We want THINGS. We want MONEY. We want LOVE. We want to be accepted, simply for the loving being we are. We already have what we need for a perfect life. Once you understand and embrace that, you will see the complete and perfect you I see. You will manifest infinitely as, you are living in the present with purity of intention and honesty. You will know to give more than you take. You’ll be surprised to all the ways love shows up. You’ll be surprised how quickly that love turns to opportunity for change. You’ll be surprised how quickly your shift in perspective allows you to access an infinite pool of resources to live your authentic, fulfilled life, and assist your dream quest. If self-improvement means there is something wrong with you, then take a deep breath and let the essence of your perfect being love your insecure self. You already have it all.
I’ve met so many wonderful people around the world that encourage me every day. People that understand loving me, means my child’s life is better, and they can then send me as a warrior for them into the world to affect change. One person I met was a bit nervous about sharing a picture of his or herself in self-realized fear that I may judge it to be ugly. Never. I receive all of the love you are generous enough to share and I see each person for whom they show up to be. Sending kind words, love, encouragement, and making an effort to support others, makes you nothing short of beautiful!
Open your heart to the love that exists, and see yourself as the complete, beautiful, loved, and perfectly flawed being you are. You cannot think your way through life or think your way through a situation. You must LIVE your way through life. What ever challenges come your way, know that you already have all the resources and support to get through it.
Step into your authentic self. Step into your excellence. Step into the love that is waiting for you. I am proud of you. I support you. I am here when you need me. Thank you for giving me the same. I receive all with open arms and return it with unconditional love. You already have it all!